My life is, momentarily, in order. Though I may risk it all by saying that.
I actually got A's on two, count 'em, two, tonal theory assignments. Considering I started out the semester with, suffice it to say, horrible grades, I'm thrilled. I am so completely inept at that class, but it looks like the hours spent on simple assignments are starting to pay off.
I wish I could describe how much better this semester has been than the last one. Than the last 4 before it. I wish I'd reached out for help long ago. This smile is genuine and this laughter is heartfelt. I know life can and will get ugly again, but I know that this time, I can handle it. And perhaps it was always meant to happen this way, that my life would pan out so I'd regain strength and perspective at precisely the time that one of the most important people in my life needed to find strength outside herself.
This is getting too abstract, I apologize. I'm just so happy to be happy.
Spring break starts tomorrow at precisely 1:50 pm. It will begin with the picking up of a paycheck and a much needed trip for groceries.
March 18 = my 21st birthday. Holy shit, I'm exuberant!